Greetings My Fellow Sirs and Madams,
My name is Sammy. I am 29-years-old. I love to draw, paint, sing, play video games, and I love animals. I’m quite a nerd, but I’m also very into beauty, fashion, and other such girly things.
Why am I here? I’m here because I suffer from a health condition and body deformities that have prevented me from daily and intimate interactions, as I rarely leave my (mother’s) house and I will not physically allow myself to be seen naked by anyone. I have not even allowed my own doctor to perform a vaginal exam. That, and I don’t want my first fingering experience to be by my doctor. But, mainly because of the former.
I would not be here if I wasn’t desperate, because I’m to the point where I’m sick of being trapped in my own skin and unable to enjoy the pleasures of life most people take for granted. It’s excruciating to deal with the mental-gymnastics because of the shell that contains me. If I wasn’t so insecure and wasn’t too unattractive, I would post or do just about anything I needed to do to have a little help and a little less struggle.
All my life I have been teased and have been insecure about my body, and it’s only getting worse as I age. Unfortunately, because of being teased by my peers and even by my own brothers and witnessing the pressure of beauty-standards in every crevice of society, I have been permanently mentally-altered to only view myself worthy of a relationship and sex if I become more attractive, or at the very least conform to a basic, minimum set of beauty standards.
Perhaps you can understand why:
I have a condition called PCOS or Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, which has given me extreme body hair on my entire body (shudders). I’m probably more hairy than most men. I am not exaggerating. Because of this, I am currently undergoing very expensive and painful electrolysis on my face (hence the image of the receipts). I go four times a month for 45 minutes to 1 hour per session, and completion of this single area takes approximately a total of one year. I’m about halfway through.
However, I have yet to treat any other part of my body as I do not have the funds. I want to undergo laser hair removal (not the same as electrolysis) on the rest of my body, but I financially cannot.
In addition to this horrible excessive hair issue, I also have deformed breasts that need to be reshaped with breast implants, lifted, and I need my nipples to be reconstructed, as they are completely flat and unattractive. I don’t even consider the lumps of fat with circle-shaped melanin on my chest as breasts. They do not look like breasts–they’re just repulsive sacks.
Lastly, I need excess skin removal on my stomach, thighs, and arms due to loose skin because I used to be more overweight. I’ve currently lost 40 lbs. and I’m still on my weight loss journey.
Aside from my own disgust with my body and limitations, there is someone truly special in my life who I want to give myself to. I met him on a video game about four years ago and we have fallen in love within the past two years. I want to meet him and live with him, but I refuse to meet him in my current state. I want him to see me and be impressed and consider me as beautiful on the outside as he thinks of me on the inside. I want to turn him on, I want to feel sexy in lingerie, I want to fulfill his fetish, and I want to marry him. He’s one of the sweetest men I’ve ever known. I don’t want to miss this opportunity at happiness and I don’t know how much longer he will wait for me. He is two years younger than me and a student smothered in debt, in case you were thinking he could be a viable financial support.
How much do I need? Gosh, I don’t know. I looked up the price of a “mommy makeover” (breast implants, lift, and tummy tuck) and I’ve seen as high as a $30k price tag, which I do not expect to obtain. I’m aware that’s a shit ton, and I am not unrealistic. Laser hair removal usually costs a couple thousand for a portion of the body for a few sessions over a period of months. I don’t even know if people donate on this page to people who won’t share nudes. At this point, I’m digging for scraps. I’ll also show receipts and I’ll post pictures if my results aren’t too hideous.
I am a person with some shitty hindrances, and I want to prove they exist to you without compromising my mental health and comfort. Please get to know me. We can exchange messages and I’ll do my best to prove to you my struggles and connect with you on a platonic-level. Despite my lack of sexual experience and introverted-nature, I do have social experience from the online friendships I’ve made and so on. I also like to absorb information via text, audio, and video. So please engage in conversation with me. I’m not the smartest person you will meet, but I promise I’m not the dumbest.
HALP ME FRANDS.
xoxo,
Sammy